a change in opinion on an old story

i was browsing through old emails and other blogs, and i chanced upon this story which i'm sure all of us are familiar. i have no idea what the actual title is, but it's the story of how guys have this girl who is their best friend who is always there but they never realize that she is in fact in love with him and that he hurts her by taking her for granted.

i always felt that it was a sad story on how guys can sometimes get caught up and not see what's actually right in front of them. not realizing what they have and how special it may be with their close female friend. but when after reading it now, being older already (i think i first read this story when i was in high school) i still think its a sad story not because the guy can't see what's going on, but for the fact that the girl cannot admit her feelings to him! i mean, obviously he doesn't see you in the same way he looks at other people. but that doesnt mean that the girl should just accept that fact! she might as well do something about it!

just something i thought about.

pilgrim's theme

i remember answering this survey and i mentioned this song in it. i love this song. i just can't help but feel that no matter what all of us may go through, God really does have a plan for us. we may not like it but its just out there, and sometimes what we want is not really the right thing for us, thus we feel the pain of disappointment only to realize fulfillment and enjoyment in what He shows us.

Pilgrim's Theme
Lyrics by Johnny Go, SJ
Music by Manoling Francisco, SJ

Tired of weaving dreams too loose for me to wear.
Tired of watching clouds repeat their dance on air.
Tired of getting tied to doing what’s required
Is life a mere routine in the greater scheme of things?

Through with taking roads someone else designed.
Through with chasing stars that soon forget to shine.
Through with going through one more day – what’s new?
Does my life still mean a thing in the greater scheme of things?

Refrain:
I think I’ll follow the voice that calls within
Dance to the silent song it sings.
I hope to find my place, so my life will fall in place
I know in time I’ll find my place in the greater scheme of things.

Each must go his way. But how can I decide?
Which road I should take; who will be my guide?
I need some kind of star to lead me somewhere far.
To find a higher dream in the greater scheme of things.

The road before me bends; I don’t know what I’ll find.
Will I meet a friend or ghosts I left behind?
Should I even be surprised that you’re with me in disguise
For it’s your hand I have seen in the greater scheme of things.

Refrain:
I think I’ll follow the voice that calls within
Dance to the silent song it sings.
I hope to find my place so my life will fall in place
I know I in time I’ll find my place...

Bridge:
For yours is the voice in my deepest dreams
You are the heart, the very heart of the greater scheme of things.

So here I think I’ll follow the voice that calls within
Dance to the silent song it sings.
I hope to find my place, so my life will fall in place
I know in time I’ll find my place...

Chorus:
Why don’t we follow the voice that calls within.
Dance to the silent song it sings.
One day we’ll find our place
For all things fall in place.
For all things have a place
in the greater scheme of things.

finally!

when the year started, i made a resolution that i would seriously get myself back in shape. i promised myself that i would go to the gym every other day or at least 3 times during the week. and i was able to do it. ill put it on record that i started weighing 268lbs at the start of the year! thats right, i was that heavy!

but after a few months, i was able to shed a good amount of weight. when i went home nung march i had already cut my weight to around 248-250lbs. which was great! however, ive been in a rut since then. when summer began, was still at the said weight and its been few months already and ive fluctuated within the said range of weight.

but finally when i checked the scale earlier! i had finally broken through. i am now at 245lbs. i know it may not be much considering its just 3 lbs. nonetheless, i feel happy that i have broken through this weird weight barrier!

thats pretty much it. i just wanted to share that breakthrough of mine (if you can call it such)

another experimental shot

as i mentioned before, ive been learning more about the abilities of my camera. and this time it was all about trying to do a shot with double exposures. the horizontal shot is the view of 8th ave from columbus circle monument which is the vertical shot in the pic.

i guess the next thing i have to learn would be choosing which shots would look good being superimposed on each other. =)

what kind of kisser am i?

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

Part Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

pamamanhikan kuno...

well it wasn't really an official pamamanhikan since i was not present. but still it was the first time my parents and her parents met up for dinner.

i really wish i could have been there to join them. unfortunately lack of money (since i went home last march to ask her parents permission) forced me to stay back here in new york.

too bad, some people are still missing. me, jofel (her elder brother) and bridget (younger sister), would have been nice if we could have a pic with everyone in it.

maybe next year then.... =)

excited!

for those who have been able to chat with me, this is something ive mentioned to them from time to time.

I'm really excited to get married!!!

thats what the counter on the sidebar is for. hehehe! though i dont know, whether its counting it from manila or new york time. =) the planning has been going along smoothly, we've made reservations already with a church and also for our reception. fyi, we're having our wedding in manila on july 8, 2006.

i can't wait! franny will be in manila for another month. by then, we should have covered most of the stuff that we need to take care of. for those in manila, i look forward to seeing you all again when i fly back next year!

what kind of soul am i supposed to be...

here's an old test i found on a friend's archives.

You Are a Peacemaker Soul

You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can. War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace. You are a good mediator and a true negotiator. Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy. While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental. You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take. On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit. You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice. Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

learning how to use my camera

when i finished my M.A., my parents gave me a camera. a nikon F65 to be exact, it wasn't a digital camera, which had all those knobs and controls to change the aperture, shutter speed etc. i never really cared for those things before, just put it on auto and let the camera take care of it.

after more than a year, i finally read the manual and was sort of curious to see whether or not i can take advantage of all the things possible. (this sudden interest also coincided when i found out black&white film was available, and what made it great was the film could be developed at any regular 1 hour photo place.) ive decided to post 2 pics which i took which im really proud of how it came up. i would have posted some other pics, but those were the pics i posted before of frances and i didnt feel like doubling it up.


soon to be bro-in-law during his stay in nyc


sam enjoying a nice cold one

trip to boston pics + a pic of nyc

here are some pics which i took from my trip to boston, the third one though is from nyc.



from the holocaust memorial, still can't believe that many people were killed. of all the quotes this one struck me the most.



south station, should have used a slower shutter speed so that the cars would be even more blurred =) im still learning!



new york's grand central!

the past week or so

back to school... well not really cause im only taking one class. to be honest, im not really into africa that much, but i am into development, hopefully things just work out and i learn something which could be applicable to other countries as well.

ive neglected my blog the past week or so. i was in boston for a few days, and when i got back, my fiancee's kuya (older bro) was here, so i brought him around town. pretty much avoided the main touristy things that people do, but rather did stuff which regular people do here. enjoy the afternoon in central park in the form of a picnic as well as try out dancing in lincoln center. (forgot the name of the event).

oh, ive been continuously experimenting various stuff with my camera. and the next post i put up, ill try to include some of those pics which im rather proud of. hehe =)

got to go sleep and catch up on that as well.

my bro, jofel, in town!

here are some pics taken with my future bro-in-law in town using his camera! i really should consider getting myself a digital SLR. hehe


too many people to mention @ central park


jofel at grand central


me & jofel in times square!